As you probably noticed, work has been few and far between for me the past few years. I haven't been trying very hard. I got this job from a camera man friend who I have worked with here and there over the years. I was very grateful to have a few days on set.
I did my own makeup an when I watched this back I was VERY distracted by my left eye shadow. I thought it need a little blending near the inner corner. It REALLY bothered me but several friends and family said they didn't noticed so I calmed down.
There was a LOT of copy for this job, but I thought it went really well. I was surprised to find that I felt very light headed for much of it. Days later I found out I was pregnant so it all made sense. (those of you not caught up, I miscarried that pregnancy a few months later, I am not currently pregnant).
This was my first job with the long hair! I had to keep watching for where it was--in front or behind my shoulder etc. Auditioning lately has proven challenging as I have to be much more aware of where my hair is landing--so weird!
I have noticed a trend in my life...whenever I am trying to work something out I take to the course and run. I actually feel finally almost completely recovered from the miscarriage. Emotionally came much faster than physically. I ALMOST feel back to square 1. Running and exercising has helped me feel at least like I am making an effort!
A friend decided to run the Brooklyn Holiday Half in December and quickly several of us joined her team. Unfortunately both of us are suffering from some IT band issues...so in the end we may just run a mile, walk a mile.
We had a friend not running with us take our pic before we started, and she TOTALLY left our leader friend out of this pic! It was kind of funny because she ended up not being able to finish either, so she thought it was apropos that she was left out of the pic too!
We ran 9 miles. Around mile 5 my knee started talking to me but I pushed through anyway. There is only so much of that you can do before your IT band will not let you take another step. But, I actually got through the entire 9 miles.
I planned the run so that I could leave my house, and then end up at Phoebe's friends house right at 10 to pick her up. It was REMARKABLE...I hit 9 miles at exactly 10 o clock on their front stoop. Technology is so awesome. I used the USA track and field website and the strava app.
During our miles around central park we ran upstream of the 60K NYRR race. These runners were circling Central Park 10 times! I saw a fellow Team Sparkler and knowing I would get to see her one more time as we crossed on the opposite side GOT ME THROUGH that hard part. In fact she rounded the bend at the end of her course, JUST as I was about to pass it, so I took her picture. WHAT an Inspiration!
I am so frustrated because I feel mentally and physically excited to run this half in a few weeks, but I'm bound by this dumb IT band issue. I think I am going to stretch and rest for the next several weeks and hope I can just pull 13 miles out of the air on the day of the race!
There is this knit designer who I love. He has the coolest style and photos of his pieces. I wanted a hat that would call attention to myself at Sheep and Wool so that people would read the vest I wore with all the Love Scarf Project info. I struggled with his pattern and only had 3 days so I took his pattern as inspiration and just improvised the rest. I love how it turned out!
I loved combining two different yarns to get the cool brioche effect. I especially love the center panel of the aqua and the yellow/aqua yarn.
So cool right?
I made some mistakes with the brioche so I added rows of just plain garter to sort of restart each section, and towards the top I Was having a difficult time figuring out how to decrease in brioche so I just switched to herringbone in the round which I love!!!!
Why didn't I ever think of making a CRAZY pom pom? sooooo good.
Hi! I am definitely collecting Love Scarves this year for cancer patients. My contact has told me that they have switched to a Valentine's Day delivery....so I am still trying to figure out if I can do my own Holidays delivery so stay tuned....but PLEASE spread the word! I made a little "commercial" for it!
Driving after dark is not her favorite, especially when it's raining. She had no choice. As she was driving she asked herself: Is it still Thursday?
She had her first audition in a long while earlier in the day. Her neighbor watched the baby so that she could go solo. It went really well, she felt great about it, and she treated herself to a quick lunch afterward, thinking all the while: this is nice. I DO actually LIKE THIS.
The last few auditions she had had to pass on for one weak reason or another, seeing the audition come through her email filled her with anxiety and dread. It had been so quiet lately, she took a wrangling job next week, thinking nothing would interfere with it, or be a conflict. She thought to herself: if I get a callback from today's audition, watch it be the day I am to wrangle. That familiar anxious feeling drifted in....
That afternoon after the "I DO Like This" audition she was teaching her weekly voice lesson and upon it's conclusion found she had 3 appointments for the next day. 3 appointments in one day is quite a juggling act. Her mind moved swiftly: be there when Trader Joes opens, move haircut appointment to late afternoon, drop Pickle with a friend in the morning, get a sitter for the afternoon, have a friend on standby if late for school pick up. Done! Voila!
Instead of dwelling on her anxiety she tried to stay grounded and balanced and channel her energy into getting it all done.
She finally sat down for the night after 16,000 steps (thank you fitbit), when she heard the girls: "Pickle puking! Mom! Pickle! Puking!"
She ran in to find vast amounts of puke all over everything. First she focused on baby, getting the last little heaves into the toilet, laying her quietly on a towel in the bathroom while she figured out where to start with the cleanup.
To her utter shock, amazement and appreciation Phoebe had stuffed a kleenex up both nostrils to block the smell and was stripping beds, scrubbing mattresses and picking up all the chunks. All the pre-teen angsty nonsense of the every single day of the past months (years!) flashed before her eyes and she thought: wow, this may turn out okay in the end after all.
She had jumped in! Helped! Taken care of the situation without being asked to or bribed or bullied into doing it! She turned her attention back to the Bug and washed her hair in the tub and got her all settled to return to slumber.
Next was texting all the people that she had set up for her day to go JUST SO. She rearranged that plan right quick, all the while thinking: IS THIS A SIGN FROM ABOVE? Should I really remain tied to this apartment, these people, this life of mine and NOT at least TRY here and there or for ONE DAY? She found herself reading into it when she realized the "arrive at Trader Joes when it opens" part of her plan was not to be.
Closes: 10 pm. It was 8:35. She had just enough time to stop by Duane Reade for the oscillococcinum and then to get the groceries before closing.
During her trip she yo-yoed between elation, I-am-woman, here me roar! AND... I think I might cry right now. Her husband was at his weekly meeting that usually went quite late, and it took everything she had NOT to call and tell him to please just come home right now so that he could help or be there for moral support or whatever. But she didn't cry. She just filled her cart. She only bought one treat too! She handled her emotions nicely!
But she still needed one thing more, and that was to just get it all on paper. The question still remains: is this too hard? Should she just skip it? or does the fact that it IS hard to juggle work and family make it all worth it when there is a booking in the future?